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?What happened?? I heard Aaron whisper to Brandt, his voice bewildered
I wasn't sure where to hide while I thoughtMy feet, like a shuttle on automatic pilot, took me
through the corridors toward my sleeping roomI could only hope that it would be empty
It was dark, barely any light from the stars trickling down through the cracked ceilingI didn't
see Lily till I tripped over her in the darkness
I almost didn't recognize her tear-swollen faceShe was curled into a tight, tiny ball on the floor
in the middle of the rolex submariner watches passagewayHer eyes were wide, not quite comprehending who I was
I stared at her wordlessly
?I said that life and love go onButwhy do they? They shouldn'tWhat's the
point??
?I don't know, LilyI'm not sure what the point is
?Why?? she asked again, not speaking to me anymoreHer glassy eyes looked right through me
I stepped carefully past her and hurried to my roomI had my own question that had to be
answered
To my great relief, the room was emptyI threw myself facedown on the mattress where Jamie
and I slept
When I'd told Jeb louis vuitton denim pleaty handbag I had one more question, that was the truthBut the question was not for the
SeekerThe question was for me
The question was would I?notcould I?do it?
Icould save the Seeker's lifeIt would not endanger any of the lives hereI would have to trade thatelanie tried to be firm through her panic
This is the thing, MelIt's inevitable anywayI should have seen it long ago
I remembered our conversation when Jamie was illWhen we were making upI'd told her that
I wouldn't erase her and that I was sorry that I couldn't give her more cartier pasha watch than that
It wasn't so much a lie as it was an unfinished sentenceI couldn't give her more than that?and
stay alive myself
The actual lie had been given to JaredI'd told him, just seconds later, that I didn't know how
to make myself not existIn the context of our discussion, it was trueI didn't know how to fade
away, here inside MelanieBut I was surprised I hadn't heard the obvious lie right then, hadn't
seen in that moment what I was seeing nowOf course I knew how to make myself not exist
It was just that I had never d |
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